
Thursday, January 31, 2008

Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I got wordy with this one
I was in a mood today. I think I know why and that just makes me even madder. I don't like to feel like I've been, umm, well, I feel like a fool. Which is really my own fault and really probably just my own ridiculous self being silly about the whole thing. But if you know me, you know I'm pretty guarded when it comes to matters of the heart. Well, to make a long story short, I got brave, told someone how I felt and what I thought. From my end, I thought the feelings were reciprocated, but a month later and there are still no developments. So, was I too honest and they got scared? Are they just really busy and still thinking over everything we talked about? What's the deal?
I just have to ask, is there some outstanding reason that I cannot get a date? I mean I have had many a conversation with my sister about this and I can't figure it out. I'm honest, trustworthy, fun, nice, kind, caring, pretty (yes I'll toot my own horn and be conceited for once), spunky, and I have a great personality. (This is where the title of the blog comes from). Why is a good personality and a pretty face not enough. What else do I need? I'm not fake or mean or gross or grotesque. I just don't get it. And you can't say that I don't try. I put myself out there, not in a floozy way but just so people know I'm available and looking to meet someone and get to know them and see what happens. I tell my friends and co-workers that I'm on the market and if they know anyone to introduce us, but to no avail.
What else can I do?I just get fired up about this because it's something that is completely out of my control and I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong. I have always believed that there is at least one person out there for every one. I don't want to be 40 years old before I ever meet that person. I am an optimist and an idealist. I was telling a some people about a woman in the community that is about 80 years old or so and how I told my sister that that was going to be me ( I was having a pity party). Instead of saying my "idealist" statement ("No, it won't. You'll get married. You'll find somebody), someone says the "realist" statement, "That would be ok. There's nothing wrong with it." I thought it was an interesting point of view. After thinking about it, no, there isn't anything wrong with it. EXCEPT it's not ok for me. I DO want to find a man and marry him and share a life with him and have a family with him. No, I'm not saying that I want it right this very second. I think I would flip out a little bit if it happened within the next year or so, but I would like the opportunity to get to know someone who could be all of those things. I would like the chance to show someone everything I have to offer as a human being.
So, basically I've been on a soap box and having a pity party for myself all day trying to figure out what is so wrong with me that I can't even get a date. A DATE. I mean I'm not looking for a free dinner and movie. Heck, I will pay for myself. All I want is male companionship and the CHANCE to get to know someone. What is so wrong with that? I'm sure relationships scare men. Heck it scares me, but at least I'm willing to chance it.
I guess all I can do is keep being me. I can live with the fact that I'm a good person. I've slowly made myself a better person than I was 2, 5, even 10 years ago. I have learned a lot about myself and made changes that make me feel good about myself as a person about the choices I make. I do have a great personality. I will continue to believe that any man who can tame me deserves to have my heart because I am awesome! I can live with myself knowing that I have done everything I know to do to let it be known that I am interested and available. Not in a desperate way, but they know. I guess if I am destined to be that 80 year old, never married woman, then so be it. As long as I make a difference in one person's life, then my life will feel complete. I just want the chances I feel that I deserve.
I won't say I'm done thinking about this or worrying about it or getting fired up about it, but at least I have it off my chest. Now, if you want to introduce me to a nice fella, you know how I feel. Go forth and find me a date!
To make myself feel a little better, I used some different makeup and decided to play America's Next Top Model.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
"Eye" See you
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Shower Time
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
Longest day of the year
Today felt like the longest day of the year so far for me. It seemed like time just went backwards. No reason at all really. I think it was just that I was ready for this week to be over and so were my kids and we were just going through the motions, hoping that the day would end soon.I was telling my co-workers how my Granny thinks I have a secret boyfriend that I'm not telling her about, so now they have all decided that they are going to find me a man. This was part of our topic of conversation at lunch. What is hilarious to me is that after we were talking about it, we had our break time and I was walking through the library to make some copies and I saw one of the nicest looking guys I've ever seen. I mean he was nice to look at and just seemed to be a really nice person. We smiled at each other and said hi and as I was walking past him one of the teachers on my team saw this exchange and started making motions like trying to nudge me toward him as a potential date. I just died laughing. Later in the day she said that she knows the guy and his mom and could set me up. So, I told her to go for it. It's so funny.
When I got home I wound up getting my dogs and we went for a drive to get some dinner. Sophie likes to ride on my lap and put her paws on the steering wheel and "drive." It's so cute. I grabbed my camera phone to take the picture, which is why it is so grainy looking, but I love it.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
The Waltons meet the Osbournes
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I feel like poo!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Accomplished
It was another productive day for me. I went to Wal-Mart and got all the stuff I needed to get for the classroom. Then I went to school and put it all away, ran copies, and set up my centers. Yay!
I am fighting a wonderful cold/sinus thing. Stuffy head, headache, running nose, cough. blah!
I'm putting this picture up because I tried something a little different. I was trying catch the sunset as I was walking in the yard. It seemed better in my mind, but at least I tried something different.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Dog days of winter
Since it was so cold, there wasn't much to do. I got groceries this morning, we watched birds from the kitchen window, ate lunch at Granny's, petted the calves, hung out at the house, and watched football games. I am still upset Green Bay didn't win! I also got some more school work done. Tomorrow I plan on going to school to run some copies and get things set up for the week.
I leave you with the picture below. I took this one. I love the look on Keri's face as she is trying to get out of the way of "The Tongue." Sydni wanted to give her a kiss!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Live, Laugh, Love
Today was rather boring. I woke up early thanks to Sydni whining to go out, worked out, lounged around the house, washed clothes (yay!), took a nap, and then my dad and I went to eat at O'Charley's. That was about the highlight of the day. I did kind of mention to him that I'm going to start looking for my own place soon. Hopefully by the end of the summer I will be in my own house. That's my goal anyways. I was very productive and got 2 weeks worth of lesson plans finished. Yay! Now it'll probably snow and I'll have to rearrange some things, but that is ok. I'm not procrastinating!
Finally, I took this picture of my baby because she was so sweet sleeping on her pillow on the couch. We played a lot today and she went on a big expedition through the woods with her sister (Sydni) and my dad and she was pooped. And I love my babies and can put as many pics of them on here as I want without reason.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Just call me Giggles
Thursday, January 17, 2008
A picture is worth a thousand words
When I got home, I felt the need to have a little mini spa night to get over the disappointment of not getting to stay home. Mini spa nights are always a nice relaxing way to end the day. I really love the mushy gushy green masks.
I also like this picture. You have no idea what I was thinking about. hehe. Are the eyes really the window to the soul?
By the way, does anyone really check this other than me?
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
Well, the day went by quickly. Kids were good. I'm super tired. Didn't want to get out of bed this morning. Where's the snow? Nothing out of the ordinary happened. I got a lot of filing done that I needed to do so I can send home papers tomorrow. I took this picture because it was something that just caught my eye. It's something I look at multiple times every day. My dad built the bookshelf for me in college. My sis gave me the plaque with the quote, which I love. I think it really represents my life motto. The picture in the back is my Granny and Granddaddy. They are a true inspiration for they type of love I hope to find one day. They were married for over 50 years before he passed away. The flowers are sentimental momentos from things that have been a significant part of my life: OPA and my sister's wedding. There are many other little things on my bookshelf that mean something to me and represent a part of who I am. Maybe I'll share those one day too.
Time for bed. Goodnight.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Wonderful World of Disney
The trip began Friday, January 11, 2008 at 3 a.m. in the morning when my mom and I got up, got ready, and drove to Keri's house to leave for Florida. We finally got on the road at 4:45 a.m.
I was bored in the car, so I tried taking some pictures. This picture was taken out the window as we were going through Georgia just before a little rain shower.
On one of our many stops for the day, we stopped at a quaint little orange market/gas station/stuffed 'gator museum to use the rest room. What luck I had when I spotted this little fella in a potted plant outside the store. I was very excited that I found him.
Again, bored and looking out the window we spotted a little, teeny, tiny rainbow among the storm clouds. If you look close enough you can see it on the right side of the picture.
After a very long drive, a slight detour because of the stupid Floriday signs, a mix-up getting a hotel and a yummy dinner at Carraba's, we settled down for the night. The next morning (January 12, 2008) it was another early day. Phone alarms started going off at 3 a.m. so Keri could get up and be at Epcot on time for the race. She and Daniel left at 3:30, while my mom and I planned to sleep a little longer and then go out on the race course to see her half way through and then to the finish line. Although, that is not exactly how it panned out. We had to wait on the bus at our hotel to take us to the race. We could either go to Epcot (where the finish line was) or we could go to the Magic Kingdom to see Keri pass the half-way mark. Well, after waiting about 15 minutes for the bus to get there, we took the first one that showed up, which was Magic Kingdom. We get to Magic Kingdom and the bus drops us off on the wrong side of the park to catch the monorail over to Epcot. So, in a mad dash, my mom and I have to run (yes, run!) across the parking lot at Magic Kingdom to catch another bus that will take us across a bridge to the right side of Magic Kingdom that we need to be on to catch the monorail. We get off that bus and run (yes, run!) again to catch the monorail to Epcot. Get off at Epcot and dash to the Finish Line to see Keri cross. We even snuck up on the GrandStand bleachers to see her finish even though spectators were supposed to pay $25. So, this picture is the final product of our hardwork to find Keri at the race, and of course her hard work for months and years of training. She finished in 2:14:39.
I had to put this picture in here just because we thought it was crazy that a McDonal's had an oversized Happy Meal on the outside of the building.
After the 1/2 marathon, we decided to go the the Magic Kingdom (my favorite place to visit!)to enjoy ourselves. We took this picture on our way in to the Magic Kingdom while we waited on the others to use the potty. It was pretty funny because I had accidentally hit for it to do a 10 second timed shot and we almost missed it. I guess you had to be there.
We found this cute little fella on our way out of Tomorrowland. I had to have my picture with him. Mom thought it would cute if I pretended to kiss him.
Of course I have to have my picture taken with "THE" man! We waited in a little toon barn to do it, but it was worth it. That place definitely makes you feel like a kid. I love the Mouse pumpkin in the back.Waiting in line again, for "it's a small world." We waited a lot that day, but not too long on anything. January is definitely the time of year to go to Disney World. And if you've ever been to this ride, they've changed some stuff. It was very glitterly and sparkly. I was excited. A very nice upgrade from the 70's retro look.
You know I love me some "Pirates." We went on the newly refurbished "Pirates of the Caribbean" ride, which was amazing. There were 3 lifelike Johnny Depp, I mean Captain Jack Sparrow's in the ride. I was a little sad that they had taken some of the older, awesome parts out, but the lifelike Johnny Depps made up for it. Afterward we came out in the gift shop and I contemplated getting these ears cause I just loved the bandana.
After we finished riding all the stuff we wanted to, it was time for the SpectraMagic parade. I didn't put any of those pics up because none of them turned out very well. It was a cool parade. I should mention that it was delayed a little bit because there had been an isolated thunderstorm about 2 hours earlier. We watched the parade and about 15 minutes after it was over it was time for fireworks. In between those times, I took this pic of the castle, because I am a princess and I just love it!
Time for fireworks. My mom took a million pics of the fireworks. I like this one the best because of the color of the castle, how clear it turned out, and how great the fireworks look. Tinker Bell kicked off the fireworks and it was awesome because she now has a lighted costume that she wears instead of having a spotlight on her. It was so magical. I love this place!
So, while we were watching the gorgeous fireworks display, the wind suddenly picked up and it got cool. I never thought a thing about it. Everyone is standing there and you hear the crowd oohing and aaahing, when all of a sudden all you hear are screams. The absolutely bottom fell out of a raincloud. Everyone was wet immediately. It is pretty much the funniest and most fun things I've ever encountered on a trip. I couldn't do anything but laugh because we were drenched. I think it was raining from the ground up. My pants were soaked up to my knees, my feet were squeeking in my shoes and I had water running down my poncho into my shirt. Most disgusting feeling ever, but so fun. We just kept watching the show. We were already soaked, a little more rain wouldn't hurt. About 2/3 of the park left and we just stayed it out. The rain quit and we did a little shopping. I got some Minnie Mouse ears. We finally left and caught the monorail to the parking lot to catch the tram to our car. Since we were already soaking wet, my mom and I decided we needed to stomp in every puddle that we saw between the tram dropoff and our car. I'm telling you, that is the most fun thing to do in the world! You need to try it.So, now today (January 13, 2007) we did nothing but drive. I am so tired of driving. Tomorrow it's back to the grindstone and back to work. I wish it would snow, so I could have one day to recuperate from the trip, but it was fun. I'm glad we had this little mini vacation. Everyone got along, we laughed a lot, and had a really great time. I got home and I was exhausted. I unpacked my stuff and decided to be silly one last time for the weekend so I put on my new Minnie ears and "fell asleep."
Now I have to go do my snow dance and really go to bed.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
On the road again...
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Sunsets and treetops
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
I'm glad to be back with my students. They are so funny. It's so great to get to see how much they grow and change in a year. It's unbelievable. It almost makes me want to have a kid one day. I said almost, not definitely.
I've been in a mood to dance. Anyone wanna go soon?
Monday, January 7, 2008
"It's My Life" so "What about Now"
So, it was a great day. I'm happy, content, excited about my life. I actually caught myself letting things go today that would normally get on my nerves. So, I think it's a nice step in the right direction towards a better me.
I'm really excited about this project of a picture a day. So much so, that I find myself looking for different, cool pictures that I can take. I even lay awake a night thinking of things I could take a picture of. So, I spent all day trying to figure out what I could shoot for today's picture. And when I got home I found what I wanted to post. I GOT MY BON JOVI/DAUGHTRY tickets today!!!!!! I'm excited!!!!!! I love them, thus the kissy face with the tickets! Yum!
You know you're jealous now!
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Victory and my just reward
Two pictures for today. First picture is Mom and her new baby Maggie. I love this picture because it shows what we were doing at 2:30 this morning. Just hanging out at the apartment, surfing the internet and loving on dogs. Even though its a dog, it reminds me of how much my mom loves and cares for me and my sis by the way she holds her. So sweet.
Second picture shows what my victory and reward are. I got my pictures from Wal-mart. I sucked it up and got a copyright letter so they would give me the pictures. Of course, when I went to get them they said that they couldn't find them and that I would have to resend them. But perseverance pays off and I went back to get her to put it in writing that I wouldn't have to pay and voila! she found the pictures!
My reward to myself for being such an awesome person and because if I stay with dial-up internet I'm going to poke my eyeballs out is......a wireless internet USB modem. That's what the little black box looking thing is. The best part is, it was basically free! With my mail in rebate for it, I will only have had to pay $4 in tax. Yay for me!
I really like doing this. It kind of makes me look at life differently because I look at the day trying to figure out a picture that will represent a memory from the day. You should really try it! It's sort of therapeutic and a great reflective tool. Plus, I like to see what kind of pictures others take.
Back to work tomorrow. Boo! But at least I'll have something to do!
Figuring this out


Thursday, January 3, 2008
New Year, New Me
This is actually a picture that I took August 12, 2006. When I took the picture it was a lot smaller and in color. Thanks to my mom, she photoshopped it to look like this, but I took the picture. Now I tell you that, to tell you this. I sent the picture to the Walmart photo center so that I can put it in a scrapbook I am making for my sister, but they wouldn't give it to me because they believe it belongs to a professional photographer and I need a letter saying it's ok to give it to me. I explained that I had taken the picture, but they still refused and said that if I did take it I need to bring in the memory card with it on it or a copy of the negative. I'm flattered that they think it was professionally made, but at the same time quite irritated that I've already paid for the picture and they won't give it to me unless I go through all of that trouble of finding the negative to get it back. I also chose to put this picture up because I found out that my cousin got engaged on New Year's Eve and is getting married at the same church my sister did on February 2nd. I'm so excited for her!
January 2, 2008
Because I was so bored on the 1st, I decided it was time to get my butt in gear and go to school to work on my room for a while. Plus, I needed to get my mind off of something so staying busy helps. That's why I put up the picture of the Christmas tree and the fireplace. That was my reading corner for the month of December and all of it came down. The picture of the phone was taken because I have done nothing but look at the stupid thing all of the break, either because the battery is going dead or because I'm hoping it will ring.
January 3, 2008
Today was more of the same. I went to school and worked on my room some more. I got a lot of work done. The pic for the day is me with my new glasses! I'm very excited to have them, even though you probably won't see me in them a lot, but it's still fun to be able to see when you need to. I think they make me look smart too. I'm digging my curly hair too. That's really just me being lazy and not wanting to straighten it.
Stay tuned.
